Running? What is Running?


Workout – stairmaster.  40 minutes.  I don’t care how many miles it says it was because it was not running.  or anything resembling running.  or anything resembling what I felt like was preparing me to run a marathon.  might as well have not happened.  but it did.  and it is important that it happened, because it’s important to cross train and keep your body moving towards a goal.  even if it feels like you are moving backwards.  or just stepping in place and not moving anywhere.  it’s the doing something that matters.  and making choices everyday to do that thing that is not doing nothing.  moving on.

Sooooo.  I’ve been pretty positive the past couple weeks about the non-running and excessive cross-training as of late.  but it hit me today.  I really miss running.  I’m getting a little concerned about the impending marathon and lack of running.  this is the longest I’ve gone without it.  in the past 5 months.  this time last year, I was really still just getting into running and figuring it out.  this winter was the first that I actually ran through the whole winter.  I’m pretty stuck on it now.  we work well together, aside from this minor shin malfunction due to over-wearing kinvara’s and under-stretching my leggies.  it is so not the end of the world.  But I let myself have a sad moment today that it’s beautiful and sunny out and I’m not cruising along the pavement letting life’s worries go with the wind.  or doing the real training that is part of the plan.  I’m starting to forget what that running feels like.  the stairmaster in the hot sweaty basement does not have the same effect.  not even close.

Sooooo.   Tomorrow can’t come soon enough.  It is the day I told myself, self, you can run on Wednesday.  you can test out those legs and see how they are healing up.  you can run to your little hearts content.  you can be reunited with your beloved track.  and then no more until next Tuesday’s little tempo pre-race run.  that’s all I get.  two measly little runs, maybe 3 if I’m a good girl, before the big one. 


Sooooo.  here are a few things that are making me feel better about the lack of running in my life.  and other things coming up that will make me feel better.

1.  As green and environmentally friendly as I try to be by not washing my hair every day and recycling the same three outfits – sometimes, you just need get rid of the greasy hair and pull it all together.  my mom did a double take and almost called 911 when she saw me actually wearing real clothes and not sweaty workout wear.  what happened to me that it became acceptable to go out in public looking like I had been run over by an eighteen wheeler.  oh.  kids.  right.  clean hair just doesn’t matter as much when it means the 2 year old will be playing in traffic if I stay in the shower 5 more minutes.   but, today, it was necessary.  I was beginning to forget what color my hair really was. 

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cleaning my closet is not on the list of things that make me feel better when I’m not running – so it’s gonna stay messy for a bit.


2.  Making an effort to think positive and trust in the work I’ve done.  Today especially, I really started questioning how the heck I was going to run a marathon next week.  simply because the past two weeks of training have been non existent.  and I start thinking of all the training I didn’t do.  while, when I was running strong, I could picture myself flying through the finish line with a massive PR and feeling capable of anything – running or not running related.  Enter those negative, self defeating, this sucks kind of thinking when I’m out of the groove, and it can really suck the life out of me.  so I’m making an effort to TRUST in the training that I did do, where that can take me, and what I can learn from it for next time.  whether it’s a massive PR or not, that’s TBD.  and it honestly doesn’t matter – as long as I can remember that I’ve truly done the best I can, and that thinking needs to come before this sucks and I might as well walk the 26.2.  that would be silly. 

3.  Lululemon.  you would think they pay me to say this stuff – but lulu really does brighten a blue mood.  what is lululemon anyway and where did that name come from? 

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anyway – this little cool racerback makes me happy.  it’s like it was made for me.  pretty sure I will wear it for the marathon.  prints do me well.  they cover the fact that the female parts that belong on my chest didn’t get the memo to grow during adolescence.  or to stay after I had kids.  solid colors only exaggerate the fact that something is missing.  I don’t need that.

4.  Enjoying the stuff that I’m doing more of than I ever have before.  Rolling.  Stretching.  Icing.  Compressing.  Massage sticking.  not stairmastering.  over that.  but it really feels good to take the time to stretch and roll and beat the crap out of my calfs with that horrible massage stick.  it hurts.  I don’t like it at all.  but it works.  so I do it with a smile.   

I also found some great stretches for runners on Runner’s World website.  most of them I do and feel great.  all about injury prevention my friends. 

View them HERE.  and HERE

5.  New sneakers make me happy.  and excited to run.  I’m ditching the Kinvara’s for this race.  not because I don’t love them.  I love you saucony kinvara.  but because I’m not sure my feeble little legs can handle them this time around.  I’m also not sure I want to run in something as heavy as the mizuno wave rider 15 that I have been wearing and loving.  after two running warehouse shipments came and went, still searching for the perfect race shoe – I went to my local running store looking for these…

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these are the ones.  the Kinvara’s are no support, minimalist shoes.  they’ve worked well for me.  The wave riders are full on stability shoes with lots of support.  the running shoe guru that helped me said that would be way too much for a marathon when I’m used to running in minimalist shoes.  these Brooks PureFlow are just a notch above the Kinvaras with a bit more support for my hurting legs.  I’m excited to really try them out on the track tomorrow.  

Until now, these are two of my favorite running sneakers….

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The kinvara is, well, the Kinvara.  And those Asics Speedstar I just happened upon and I LOVE them.  and now I can’t find them.  I’ve often thought, the best shoe would be a blend of the two.  Let me tell you, if Kinvara and Speedstar got together and had a little lovechild, it might look like those Brooks Pureflow – the best of both shoe worlds to my feet.  Putting them on makes me excited to run the marathon.  so that’s what I do, until I run tomorrow.  I put them on.  have a happy moment.  and take them off.  good times.

6.  Chocolate always makes its way in to the day when trying to brighten the spirits.  Dare I say I have never had a cadbury egg.  I haven’t.  being that they were on sale, I had to try one.

not impressed.  it did not make me happy.  I want my money back.  and my calories, too.

7.  I get to see my little sister twice this month.  this is exciting.  this makes me happy. 

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she is coming home for Easter this weekend.  then in 3 weeks I will be going down to Nashville to see her and run the RNR Country Music Marathon with her.  if my legs are still attached to my body.  She is running the half.  I am planning on doing the full.

8.  I finally registered for the NYC Marathon.


It’s on my list of marathons I’m doing this year – but before today, I hadn’t actually registered for it.  it’s not happening until you’re registered.  I’m registered.  Its going to happen.  So there’s another one in the books, for sure, that I can train for and stress about and lose my mind over.  all of the fun things that I do when getting ready for a race.

8.  Then, if all else fails, and the grumps can’t be avoided and negativity and unhappy thoughts about not running ensue – I take a cue from the little guy and throw a blanket over my head and call it a day. 

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after rearranging the bedroom furniture.

My husband would prefer it if I did not get to that point.  he says it alarms the children.  ok.  I’ll try to pull myself together.


What do you do to get yourself out of a negative mood?

Who is running NYCM?

How are the workouts going this week?  Getting some good running in?  Tell me about it!

Who is a big fan of Cadbury cream eggs?  Maybe I just tried the wrong one.  didn’t enjoy it.



About msfitrunner

I am a 29 year old stay at home, hardworking mom to my three little loves! My oldest little darling is 5, little sis is 4 and baby brother is almost 2. I have been married to my Mr. Wonderful for almost 7 years (ahhh!). My faith and my family is my rock, and I have a newfound LOVE for running. Maybe it's more of a necessity at this point - to maintain household peace and my own sanity, but whatever it is, it's working for me and I'm loving the racing. The vegan world has been calling my name, so I am testing out those waters as well! That's a tough one with three little picky eaters at home, but I am having fun coming up with new recipes and trying out new things. Follow along as I chronicle this crazy running life, and ALL the craziness that goes with it!

15 responses »

  1. I love your blog! It’s so refreshing and relatable. I might try the blanket over the head trick some time. 🙂

  2. It might sound cliche, but soaking in the tub for a bit while my husband watches the kids always does wonders for my mood – usually because my bad moods mean I need to chill out for a minute. Not doing NYC this year but have done it (2003) and it was hands down one of the best experiences of my life. You will do amazing. I am Taking It easy on the runs this week after an awesome half marathon this past Sunday and then will resume to prepare for a tiny town half in mid may. Oh and cadbury eggs are gross imo.

    • Ok, I want to know how your half went?!?! I was thinking about you running it- I’m glad it was great!! Glad I’m not the only one that doesn’t like the Cadbury chocolate:)

      • It was awesome! I was never since it was my first race since baby and first 1/2 in 1.5 years but it was great. Perfect weather, really neat and gorgeous course with a finish on the 5O yard line at neyland stadium. Did have some monster hills that I wasn’t *quite* ready for yet but loved it anyway. Looking forward to seeing what shape I’m in for the next one in 6 wks or so. Thanks for asking 🙂

  3. Hahaha my chest didn’t get the memo during my adolescent years either ;D
    Ooh, how I get myself out of a bad mood… that’s a tough one. I’m still working on that one!
    I plan on doing some kind of run tomorrow morning because the weather has been amazing!
    Hope you have fun hanging out with your sister this weekend!

  4. Cadbury Creme eggs…GROSS! Cadbury mini eggs with the candy shell…addictive!

    My chest got the memo BIG time in the adolescent years but after my first baby it was like the birthday balloons sprung a leak and lost all their air. never to be refilled again. my husband called and wanted his girlfriends chest back. not going to happen unless I get pregnant and start nursing again and then who wants to let anyone (except baby) near their chest then anyway!

    bad mood…sort of on a daily basis around here but usually(other than going for a run/time out) decluttering something helps ease my mind. I usually end up screaming something about not being able to find a safe place…aka clean….in the house. i’m a little type A about clutter/clear floors.

    Did a very hard yoga class this morning…icing/heating my back/hamstrings now! 10K next weekend. Enjoy the new shoes and a much need short run!

  5. When I am in a bad mood I eat a big tub of ice-cream in my pyjamas. Bliss! I love reading about your running shoes and makes me feel less guilty to be excited to run in new shoes.
    Have you tried the Saucony Fastwitch 5? They have a little more support and cushioning than the Kinvaras. I have them and so far so good. Thinking about the Kinvara because all the good reviews I’ve been reading about them but only if they like my feet too.

    • I did try the fastwitch, and didn’t love them. I liked the Saucony Type A5 and will probably get them when my legs are feeling 100%, but use them for half marathons and under. You will love the kinvaras. Ease into them though, if you are not used to running in minamal shoes. But they are pretty fantastic:)

  6. The Cadbury cream eggs USED to be amazing…but right after I got married they changed the inside cream, and I’ve never liked them since.

    I did speed work today, it was kind of a rough workout, but I felt pretty good after I was done. I’m still having trouble with my left calf tightening up and causing pain, but foam rolling and my calf sleeves are helping. I’m currently training for my 1st 1/2…the Utah Valley half. I’m excited, but sometimes I think it’s a huge undertaking.

  7. I’m not running NYC but Kevin is, so I’ll be there to cheer you all on:-) Agree, Cadbury Cream Eggs = Disgusting waste of chocolate. I do love a Cadbury Mini Egg, though! I definitely get stuck in negativity from time to time. Shopping, chocolate, ice cream all help. I think the key is to do something nice for someone else…that always gives me a little lift. I think you are doing a great job managing your workouts to keep your fitness levels high without running. ENJOY your run today — I really hope it is pain-free for you.

  8. I feel like Cadbury eggs are one of those things that you like only because of the childhood memories associated with them … and since you didn’t have those memories, it makes sense that you didn’t really like it. I personally like the one that has caramel in the middle. Yum. 😉

  9. how exciting that you’re running nyc!

    in 2008 i was injured for 9 months where i couldn’t even run for a minute and was stuck on the elliptical, bike, and stepper…and let me just say that those items do not even compare to running. yes it’s movement, but i felt like it was torture being stuck on those dreadful pieces of equipment when it was beautiful outside. but hang in there!

    love that lulu racerback and have it in about 10 colors. so comfy, and the fact that it doesn’t ride up and stays in place while running makes me super happy. but it does make my chest look completely flat…

  10. If the Pure Flow doesn’t work for you, try the Saucony Mirage! It’s basically the Kinvara with some stability in it. I ran the Nike Women’s Marathon in it and it was the perfect for slight stability. And you don’t really have to break them in. The Flows seem to have a stiffer type of cushioning.

    I LOVE cadbury eggs!! You must’ve tried a bad one 😉

    • Thanks for the recommendation – I actually have the mirages, and I don’t know if they run small or what, but I got 3 blisters the first time I wore them, and they just haven’t been comfortable since. I now use them as my cardio machine shoe, not for running. I’m glad you like them! I really wanted to like them, because I love Saucony. Maybe I’ll give the cadbury eggs one more shot;-)
      Have a great weekend:)


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